New journey. New discoveries. New grace. New marks. New blog.
"For through the law I died to the law so that I might live for God. I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing!" Galatians 2.19-21
"I live by faith in the Son of God...I do not set aside the grace of God."
Remember this crazy, imperfect mess? The one who is on that journey of grace to healing and restoration? I am not defined by the loss I have faced, yet I cannot deny that it has changed me - that there are now "marks" in the history of my life. Marks that were created by the loss. Marks that do define me, and have changed me. It may seem to some that I refer often to grief or loss. I do because, it really truly changed my life. There are significant marks or moments along the way where God has spoken to me, new revelations of Himself. These marks are what gave me the strength and faith to keep going even in the most difficult of times. These marks were truth speaking light in the darkness. It was truth that would remind me of who He is or truth that would change my perception of who He was.
On the other side of this 6 year struggle, I see these moments as marks of grace. Grace for the moment in whatever way that looked. It was always different, nonetheless, grace. Now, it is this grace that is now no longer just a mark, but grace that I find I live in from moment to moment - day to day. It is because of this grace, I know I can overcome future and current struggles. The discovery of this moment to moment grace is a new mark in the history of my life. It is precious to me on so many levels. Most of all, it is the realization that I need and can live moment to moment in His grace. His grace provides all I need for the struggles of sin and life that I face every day.
I am an achiever by nature. Give me a standard of measure, and I will meet or go above it. This has not bode well for my relationship with God. He says that we are saved by grace through faith, not by works. I become regularly discouraged when I feel as though I have not measured up to the high standard that I have given myself. This happens in all areas, but right now I am focusing on my relationship with God. I want to give Him my time, I don't. I want to give Him my attitude, I don't. I want to give Him my thoughts, I don't. The list could continue. I become discouraged and guilt ridden, causing me to pull away from His embrace. Good thing God loves a screw up, right?
Yet, in this, He is teaching me truly what it means to live in faith and grace. When I chose to follow Him, I died so that He might live in me and through me. "I no longer live, but Christ who lives in me". I am not operating on my own measure of standards. My life now flows from the inside out. Christ living in me will help me to be and do all that is needed to honor Him. I can stop performing or earning my way to His approval, grace and love. His love and grace for me is simply that, for me - not what I do. His sweet and abundant grace. Grace for every moment of every day. Oh, if we could rid ourselves of the law to embrace His grace...what love and grace could we then give out to others?
Thus, my new blog name. "Grace Finds Me". Every moment of every day. In my sin, as a wife, as a mom, as a minister, and as a daughter of the King. He spoke to me 4 years ago about using a blog to speak His life, love, and grace. I have continually pushed aside becoming serious about it. Remember, my overachiever issues? Right. So, through His grace I am recommitting to the blog, and acting in obedience to Him. Even if no one reads, even if I feel I don't have anything worthy enough to say, even if my posts fail miserably in making sense or people hate them, and even if I think I am the wrong one to call to do this...His grace will find me and help me to do it. It's more about acting in obedience through His grace, then it is anything else.
So, I will write and speak of life in Him, speak of His love, and now, speak of His grace. If you are regularly in need of His grace in all of those roles you fill, I invite you to come along and share in this grace journey. Share it with a friend or family member who needs it, and all together we will hopefully encourage one another.
May You feel quiet moments of grace on this Monday. May His everlasting love pick you up in your weakness, and remind you "all is well". He is with you.